I started this blog with the intent to be one of those positive, super cute moms whose life was picture perfect like in a magazine; but then I came to the realization that that wasn’t me at all. I want to stay true to myself. I am probably the farthest from a positive person and my life is nowhere near perfect. I realized though, that I am human. Every human goes through phases of life or transitional periods; in this post we’ll call it seasons.
My season is winter. It’s always been winter, for as long as I can remember. I am cold, blue, bundled up to myself. Don’t be get me wrong, I love my friends and family, but I have always been closed off. I enjoy the comfort of being alone, always have.
Becoming a mother has been the most significant and incredible transition in my life thus far. Becoming a mother has also made me want to change my season.
Currently, I am fall. I am finally understanding my values and who I am as a person. I am letting go of my old ways, or atleast doing my best. For the past couple of months I have been making it a point to work on myself atleast once a day. Whether it be reading self help books, writing, setting goals or just simply taking an hour to myself.
One day in the future I will be summer. I will be full of energy and see the positive in every situation. I will be completely and utterly happy with myself as a person from the inside out. I will treat those close to me better and I will continue to put my son before all else.
Until then, I am going to enjoy fall.